February 02, 2017
Hello friends. I've missed you. I had such plans to share some New Year inspired thoughts about planners and treating yourself right and I just couldn't seem to pull my thoughts together. I have honestly struggled to do anything that isn't yarn related as of late. Unless it is fabric related. Or sitting and drinking tea and reading related. Or introverting related.
To be honest, I feel like I'm going through something. Something that I can't quite put my finger on but which can only be made better by being still, by silencing all the noise in the world with things that are of comfort.
So here I sit, not leaving the house for days, no television, no news headlines, just the sound of the cat snoring, the dishwasher humming and the washing machine going. The sun shines in on rare occasions but more often than not it's grey outside and I have table lamps, fairy lights and candles flickering to light my way.
Don't misunderstand me. I'm not sad. I'm just feeling quiet and reflective. I don't have any energy or patience for nonsense. I rarely get on the computer unless it is to watch a knitting podcast. I miss reading blogs and checking pinterest but I can't seem to carve out the time. There is no space in my head for anything other than colors and patterns.
I am powered by chai and creativity. I rejoin the world of the living upon occasion and enjoy myself whole heartedly when I do, but the sweet relief of putting on my pajamas and curling up with a project refuels me in a way nothing else seems to be able to do right now.
In my need to embrace this phase, I seem to have missed the month of January. I'm really not quite sure how that happened. One day I sat down to knit a pair of socks and the next time I looked up the calendar was changing.
I can no longer be bothered to wish away the time. Time is flying by at such a pace that I know all too soon the day, month or year will have zipped right past me anyway.
It seems the more still I get, the more appreciative I am of my life, the quicker it all goes. This doesn't seem right to me, yet it's the way it is.
So for now I will continue to hunker down, spending my moments in ways that make me happy and I know soon I will wake up renewed and ready to people again. Until then I am going to make the most of this season.
Oddly enough, this is not at all what I planned to write about today, but apparently this was sitting in my mind waiting to be written. Who am I to say no? I will be back next week to talk about Sacred Days and some changes that I'm making in the studio. I really, truly hope you are all well.