December 27, 2018
Hello dear friends. I am currently cuddled into my favorite corner of the studio, in my coziest grey sweater, my little fireplace lit up, a candle burning and my knitting right beside me. I am alone in the house, the dog and cat are napping, it's raining outside which makes me happy, even though I wish it was snow. It was my intention to sit and knit and watch something cozy but I felt an overwhelming desire to stop in here for a visit first.
While the house is peaceful, my mind is anything but, although rest assured it is for the very best of reasons. I have so many plans flittering about in that place that I can scarcely concentrate on a single thing for more than a few minutes. So many plans and ideas and inspiration and dreaming so many dreams (more on those later) that several times I have put my hands on either side of my head and told myself "SETTLE DOWN!". It doesn't seem to work. I try to talk and I'm sure my conversation is disjointed and I know I'm all over the place because Maddie commented the other day that I was squirrelly-ier than usual. So I try not to talk too much so as not to exhaust those around me but chances are the quieter I am, the busier my mind is. One of the many "perks" of being me. When my mind finally does settle down, I pretty much just slump to the side and fall asleep.
I've decided to start off my new year with a freshened up studio space. I'm very much craving some change here and have been for quite awhile. Now seems like the absolute right time. I know from personal experience that people will have opinions about changes to my house which is sweet but can also sometimes make me delay following through because I will think about how much other people love it just the way it is. But I've got to be me, so me, I shall be. I believe in following my heart and my crazy ideas, which after all led me to this very place in this life that I love. We have now lived in this house longer than I have ever lived any place in my entire life. Isn't that incredible? How can almost 8 years break the record? It will feel good to introduce a little change and start to acclimate to a year that will be full of it. I am throwing my arms wide open and welcoming it!
This post is my little love note to a studio that has inspired me and been my haven for the better part of the last decade. Now I will start to say my goodbyes to the old and begin moving towards the future. The paint has been chosen, fabric ordered, ideas hatched, dreams dreamed (dreamt?), lists made and it is all subject to shift and change as I go along until it ends up just as it should be.
I have spent many a New Year's Eve feeling fearful of what the next year might bring, of being overwhelmed by the unknown. It feels different this year. It feels a little...delicious.
I hope you all are enjoying this in-between time and are finding time to curl up and spend some time dreaming your dreams.