November 12, 2014
Searching for Joy
First, let me say thank you all for your comfort and encouragement last week. Little did I know how my week was going to go south from there. Truthfully, last week sucked. And I don't even like that word. It was like the sucky cherry on top of the sucky sundae. What I'm trying to say is that we have had some trying months. Like 6 of them. Hey Life! I'm waving my surrender flag!
I'm a big fan of choosing joy. You guys know that. I look for it always and forever in the small moments as well as the big. There are certain times when that can be more challenging than others. I mean, it's pretty dang easy to find the joy when life is handing you nothing but rainbows and kittens, right? I think the times when it is harder to find, it's actually much more important to search it out.
I choose to not let the hard times make me bitter because I grew up in that atmosphere and it is pointless and toxic. I gave myself time to wallow in the misery a bit and then I picked myself up and forced myself to look beyond it. It doesn't mean the bad stuff goes away, it just means that I'm choosing to focus on something else. For now. To keep myself sane.
So I picked up my camera, which is an amazing way to help me see my world differently. It turns out there are small joys all around me. Like Christmas decorations in the studio. And almost finished knitting projects. The makings of a comforting cup of chai. Cold days and cozy evenings. Books to be read.
This was just the attitude adjustment I needed. It turns out I cannot be grumpy while wrapping presents or flipping through Christmas books. Now it's a new week and a fresh start. I'm feeling calmer and I've gotten my perspective back. I'm gently reminding myself that this too shall pass and the important things in my life are still as they should be.