May 23, 2015
In the interest of full disclosure I feel I should tell you that I have had at least one and a half margaritas. And also, I'm a total light weight drinker so one and half margaritas for me is like a fifth of vodka for regular people. ;) Don't let that statement influence your opinion on this post. Everything I have to say tonight is 100% true, the margaritas are just the impetus behind my having the nerve to hit publish.
We are coming off of a hard week which has been the tail end of a very hard month which is wrapping up a very hard year. The take away for me is this...I love my life. Truly and completely. I love my marriage and my family and this life I am living every day. In that exact order. This isn't to say that it is perfect or everything I wish it was. I wish we had less debt. I wish I was 20 pounds lighter. I wish we could travel more. I wish there was more time in the day. I wish my calendar wasn't so full. I wish my Sweet Man wasn't so tired when he comes home from work. I wish, I wish, I wish. Sometimes we let what we wish was reality affect the way we feel about today. About this moment. Or maybe that's just me.
But here's the thing. Love the life you have right now! And if that is just not possible then make some changes so that it is. Love yourself where you are right now. We are all a work in progress! We started this day watching the sunrise on the stone wall behind our house and ended it tonight with a little date night. We dropped our girl at a friends house and picked up the makings for dinner at our Village market. We came home and cooked together and had a romantic dinner on the front porch. I couldn't help but feel completely and utterly content. Despite all the unperfectness. Focusing on the good always makes all the difference for me.
I also couldn't help but play a little game of what if. Our entire life, all of our today, is built on making brave, difficult choices. This life did not just magically fall into place for us but I cannot even imagine what our lives would be if we had not done the work that was required to get us where we are right now. The hard stuff makes me appreciate the good stuff. The hard choices and work make this life that much sweeter. And if you look around, really look, there is so much good stuff to be thankful for.
So that's enough of my tipsy ramblings. I just want to leave you with this thought, I totally called first peony to bloom! Now go live and love your life!