March 11, 2013
All Over the Place
I feel like my mind is all over the place right now. I have at least 6 different projects waiting for me to begin them. I'm trying to prep for my next class, I'm starting to think about my veg garden and all the work that needs to be done in my yard, plus working on the room formerly known as Maddie's room and Emma's treehouse.
Some days I feel like my head might explode. It all gets so overwhelming for me with all the pulling in different directions and lists of things that need to be done on top of the everyday things that need to be done like bills, groceries, chauffeuring, cleaning and cooking. I know it seems like a homemaker with no littles underfoot must have oodles of time on her hands but quite honestly I find it difficult to even carve out time to take a walk. Don't mistake my words for complaints. I'm eternally thankful to have this life and these opportunities. I just feel like perhaps I'm not using them the way I want to be.
There are times I just want to simplify. I want to cancel classes, pull back from blogging, quit saying yes and spend my days without lists. Simple days full of doing whatever project calls to me that day, making things to sell on Etsy, writing, baking, walking the dog, gardening, hanging clothes on the line, meeting a friend for coffee. Reading a book! Maybe that could be my life. Or maybe that could at least be my life this summer.
I feel a change coming. Maybe it's just the first breeze of Spring stirring my heart. I want to take time to notice the small moments and hidden beauty in the everyday. I know it doesn't need to be an all or nothing proposition but sometimes it feels like an easier idea than trying to find balance. This morning I'm going to make myself take the time to go for a walk. Who knows where it will lead?
So, this isn't at all what I intended to blog about this morning. I was going to share a bit of Emma's birthday party but instead I guess I needed to blog from my heart. A random post full of random pictures. It feels like the right way to start this week.